I just finished packing for my trip to Europe and I took a mini break to hang out with my Ba (grandma). I went into her room to say good night and I caught her eating a caramel by her bed so she started giggling. She is so cute and funny. I love chatting with her before she goes to sleep. We always tease her about her dentures and she has had them as long as I have been alive. When she takes them off before bed I used to make her say "mathematics" because it sounded like "mafamafics". I got a kick out of that! I actually just made her do it again for old times sake.
I get so worried about her and find myself getting sad when I think about how old she is. Sometimes I come home and find her sleeping (she sleeps all the time) and I will just unknowingly stare are her breathing pattern for a good 5 minutes. I am sure it is because I fear something happening to her during her sleep. I know death and illness are both natural things but I still get anxious relating these concepts with family. She is my last living grandparent and she had a huge part in raising me. She is also my mom's best friend and I know it will really leave my mommy feeling helpless. She has had issues with her heart for a long time but in the past few years she was diagnosed with pulmonary fibrosis. The steroids she is taking for that condition actually kicked her into diabetes. It really makes me think about how much people at her age have to tolerate just to function "normally" day to day.
I get so worried about her and find myself getting sad when I think about how old she is. Sometimes I come home and find her sleeping (she sleeps all the time) and I will just unknowingly stare are her breathing pattern for a good 5 minutes. I am sure it is because I fear something happening to her during her sleep. I know death and illness are both natural things but I still get anxious relating these concepts with family. She is my last living grandparent and she had a huge part in raising me. She is also my mom's best friend and I know it will really leave my mommy feeling helpless. She has had issues with her heart for a long time but in the past few years she was diagnosed with pulmonary fibrosis. The steroids she is taking for that condition actually kicked her into diabetes. It really makes me think about how much people at her age have to tolerate just to function "normally" day to day.
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